It has been quite a while since I have posted anything on this blog. This has been a parenting blog, a savings blog, a food blog and a general place for me to moan and groan about life. So now that I want to get this started again I am trying to decide in what direction I would like to take this. So I decided to sit down and just write what was on my mind.
I have been through a lot in the past few months. I have had two major surgeries within a six month period of time and it has had a profound effect on my every day life. If I hadn't explained before I have hydrocephalus. Hydrocephalus stands for water on the brain. Basically my body does not have the ability to drain fluid naturally and I have to have an implant called a shunt put in my head to help it drain. I have put a link on the page if you want all the basics.
About Hydrocephalus
Now I am not new to hydrocephalus or surgeries. I have had the condition for 21 years and have been through multiple surgeries. Most of the time they help with whatever is going on at the time and then I am good for quite a few years. This time I wasn't so lucky. So here is the back-story of this past surgery experience. About 4 years ago I was advised by my neurosurgeon that I was possibly free of my hydrocephalus and that the shunt that I had was not needed anymore. So lucky for me I got to have another quickie surgery and then I was considered shunt free. I made it over 3 years without any issues, so I thought. I even started becoming a little lax on going to my yearly doctors appointments. Then, low and behold some symptoms started popping up and a coworker convinced me to make a doctors appointment and that is when I learned that I would be going back under the knife and getting a new shunt. Yeah, so that shunt didn't work so well and I felt worse than I had before. On top of all that I rushed back to work only 2 months after surgery. That was a bad idea. I worked for about 3 months and finally got referred over to a specialist who is the top doctor on my condition and we decided I needed another surgery. Most people would be freaked out to go under the knife, but I was excited that we may be going down the right road and I finally may live life in a comfortable place. So I had surgery 5 weeks ago and so far so good. I still am uncomfortable and I know it is going to take a while before I feel like myself again, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have embraced my short hairstyle and I think I am going to keep it going for a while. So I am embracing all the positives of this experience.
There are some negatives. Right now I am waiting to see if I am going to lose my job. I have been out of work since the end of June and I was in an ongoing fight with the short term disability company my employer uses and I unfortunately lost so there is no requirement for them to keep my position. Honestly, I have enjoyed my summer being home with my kids. I think I will enjoy being a stay at home mom for a while, especially since I really think I am more beneficial to my kids when I am here. My 3 kids will be going into 2nd, 4th and 6th grade and I want to be that active parent who doesn't have to say "no we can't go because I have to work." With unemployment the way it is I really should embrace that I have a good job, but I am in a very unhappy place with the company I work with. I don't do the job I was hired for and I feel like I am losing the knowledge and skills that took me years to perfect. I guess it is just a wait and see for me at this point and I will have to plan around my health since that is the most important thing. I see lots of change in my future and now I think I am going to have to write about it all.
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